Oy Vay. Things have been a-changin...

To understand the present, you must understand the past.

I saw him at a choir concert and although his posture was off and he looked indifferent, he was the single most gorgeous human being I'd ever seen. I was only 15 and he was 16. I didn't know his name but I had to meet him. He was too attractive to not meet. I met him a few months later and was enamored. He was funny and his laugh was infectious but I thought he was way too pretty to want to talk to me. I am persistent however and he was an especially beautiful and our last classes were next to each other. So I talked to him before and after that class and at the end of the year I discovered two amazing things: 1) we would have choir together the next year and 2) his name was Jarre.


Our relationship as rather tumultuous the first year. The second year though was generally beautiful and loving and comfortable. Then the last few months we were together, something was wrong. I didn't know what. I didn't know how to fix it so I just kept trying to smother him with all of my time and attention so he'd be happy. He wasn't. Nothing got fixed.

I've already written about our break up and thus will not discuss it again but I've done quite a bit of thinking about us lately and I was definitely more at fault than either of us previously thought. I'm neurotic, needy, emotional, and I was remarkably passive. I knew something was wrong but I never pressed him for an answer.

Anyhoo, a couple weeks ago he did three things he'd never done before:
1) He answered a specific question with a specific answer.
2) He listed things he missed about me as a person rather than things I did for him.
3) He told me he loved me, missed me, and wanted me back.

It's a process but we're working towards getting back together. He's shown some very promising growth and is committed to making this work this time around. We have plans to work through our issues both together and individually and for the first time in months, I'm wholly happy. He's sweet, intelligent, kind, loving, hi-larious, and makes me smile.

Be happy for me.
Stay classy readers.