Jarre and I are done. Again. I'm heartbroken. I love him so much I don't even have words for it. But it's what he needs right now. He's so sad, it hurts me to see how sad he is. I know I can't fix but I wish I could. I wish I could just love him so hard that he'd just be fully happy and whole and we would be good. I don't like not being able to do something. I don't like not making him happy.
I am semi-ok though. I saw it coming. I'm pretty decent at being single. I can do this. I just need to have faith and trust that God has a plan for me and will provide.
I am still getting tattooed on Saturday with my Hebrew/love piece and will start Ganesh on the 7th. I'm also house sitting this weekend and I can't wait. I just need time to myself to sleep and drink and be relaxed and sad and whatever else happens.
As much as I love my job and the children I work with, I can't wait for school to be over.
I love me, I can do this.
Sleep well and love yourself.
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